Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!

SATURDAY
I sent a group message to all my friends,friendly quote...I received a reply, "Hus dis po? Tnx..I replied, hay, hir I go again...Iriz hir...

This is the second time that he did this to me...I told to myself this is too much...Enough of the stupidity...He wants you to realize that even his phone doesn't have any space for you...I felt the sadness for I'm not expecting anything from him...

Then,an affected me...Loser...

SUNDAY
After watching the episode, I went to the church for one thing - to pray for my heart...I said to the Lord, please help me forget how much I loved and how I am ignored...I told him okai,fine,it won't work out,got it...but please help me, make me strong...Help me accept the fucking situation he puts me into...
I AGAIN declared to the universe and this time I'm serious - It's over...I'll start within myself...

MONDAY
Morning
I went to the office with a light heart...Thank you Lord...I know u heard me...
Night
A friend txted,saying hi...Since it's a common friend,I thought of him...Then I asked..."No problema niya? Bkt hindi naka-save number ko?" My point is I'm not doing anything to bother him...Is he sending a message that I should really quit communicating? Its just a quote, sent to many...Just that...
My friend replied, "Nyeh, ano un, e nakalagay pa nga kung smart or globe eh"
So what? What's the message? So confused...

TUESDAY
An ordinary day...Light heart, free spirited...Never thought of it again...I'm standing on the position...Being strong...

WEDNESDAY
At Gerardo's, a friend asked, "San na globe m? I replied,"Nasa bag,kaya ko na i-let go" Not waiting for anything, that I really mean...
After an hour,I received a txt "_ _ _ _ sorRy..;c tnku parn"
I bravely pulled myself and did not respond...

What's this? What do you want? What's the point? I'm okai, I have moved on...But just when I'm starting to move on AGAIN, and declared that I will really be firm with this decision, I will hear from him...

Is this a test? Please not now, its too early...Still,I am weak...Coz now, look I'm bothered and disturbed...should I txt him? What if? What if? What if?

So tired...Enough...I kept quiet...I even say it's okai...I guess I deserve to put my feet up as well as my heart...

Air of Mystery

Yesterday is my parent’s wedding anniversary…But since they are both in heaven, nobody did celebrate this special day…As much as I wanted, I cannot…This is because it’s only their hearts bound together knew the feeling that this day entails twenty five years ago ‘till one left and the other followed.

Air of Mystery that only the heart can explain.

To my tatay and Inay, happy anniversary…Sorry for posting the entry the day after…I know that you saw us working for her birthday episode that I woke up 2:00 pm today…I love you nay, tay and I’m missing you both so much…Please tell HIM to help me lessen the wretchedness…This is the best thing I can do for I cannot wish him to bring you both back to us…

Happpy Daaaaaays with my BEST FRIENDS in work....

sNeaK PrEviEw of La Luz,San Juan Batangas!!!!

A decade of friendship and still counting...

At Allan's House...(ramil-new friend?,bebe,potchie,allan,mayann,arianne)

Our Daddy Jansen...

The Mommy Cathy

Another shot @ Logo Jam

Exterior Shot

Not a typical group...We don't text too often...We don't even see each other always...We even lost track of what's happening on each other's life...But the good thing, we catch up...

AND IT STARTS ALL OVER AGAIN...

_ _ _ _ tnk u kgbi at knina..Pasok nku..phinga kang mbuTi..

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Sent:
11:40:54am
Aug.24.2008


Tnk u..MANGY2RI dn un _ _ _ _..Asap. . Dto nku w0rk. .hay mdaling arw n naman uwi ku.

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Sent:
02:03:33pm
Aug.24.2008


_ _ _ _ dto nku sabhay..Hay. . Pgud..

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Sent:
12:26:16am
Aug.25.2008


_ _ _ _ nkaluwas knb? Kain pu..DTO nku lem pero uwi parn aku bal

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Sent:
08:50:18pm
Aug.25.2008


KaKauwi ku lng frm lemery, dto nku bal, puyat 8am pku maya..MWAH..GNYT pu.. :-) gud m0rning pla. .

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01:14:05pm
Aug.26.2008


Gnyt _ _ _ _,phinga n tau..PNGgbi aku t0m start at 2pm til 12AM..Gudlak

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11:18:23pm
Aug.26.2008


THE DIFFERENCE: I'M RECEIVING THE ATTENTION EFFORTLESS ON MY PART...

I'M SO AFRAID...

IT WILL COME TO AN END AGAIN EVENTUALLY...

I HAVE TO BE READY...

WE CAN'T BE HAPPY TOGETHER...

As our friend will tell us,"Kayo ang great example ng pwede na hindi pwede"

:-(

Fri-HAY-Day

Pek: San ba kami tutulog sa Cebu?

Mimosa: Sa Plantation bay..

Pek: Wow, sobra sobra naman ang binigay sa akin ni Lord na out of town, bonggang bonggang Plantation bay...

Hay...Bigla akong nalungkot...Namimiss ko na talaga lumabas...Mag-shoot, makipag-usap sa iba't ibang klase ng tao, makahanap ng istorya pa ulit habang gumagawa pa ng istorya sa isang lugar, makasama ang makukulit na crew, matulog sa hotel kasama sila, maginom sa gabi pagkatapos ng shoot...Bago pa ako natali sa opisina, hindi naman pa karamihan ang mga out of town shoot ko kaya kokonti pa din lang naman ang memories na aking naitatago...pero alam ko ang lahat ng iyon, maaalala ko pa ang bawat maliliit na detalye...

Ipagsisigawan ko sa buong mundo: GUSTO KO NA LUMABAS ULIT, AYOKO MATALI SA OPISINANG ITO...OO, NAKARAMDAM AKO NG INGGIT....

Bukas, alam ko na tatamarin ako pumasok...Hindi ako gaganahan bumangon...

Bakit? Kc...

si Prue, nasa malayong lugar...

si Paul at Liezl, nasa Cebu....

(Nagkaproblema kung sino pupulawt sa Cebu pero kahit pa gusto ko talaga mag-out of town at mag-tsinelas ulit at kahit alam ko na sabihin ko lang na ako na ang pupulawt noong tinatanong NIYA ako kung sinong pwede - hindi ko ginawa...Kelangan ko ang aking Sabado ngayon para sa aking pamilya,hay hindi yata talaga para sa akin?)

si Mimosa at LT, nasa Dumaguete....

Ang matitira sa opisina - ako at si Ate Jerleen...

HAY....

Sa mga mas malalapit kong kaibigan,alam kung bakit "hay" na lang ang nasabi ko...

Te jerleen, walang walk out factor ha...Kaya natin 'to...Matatapos din ang bukas....